if there are ten thousand people in this world who love you, i am one of those ten thousand. if there is one person in this world who loves you, that one is me. if there is no one in this world who loves you, then that must mean i no longer exist. *
1. In this world, Donghae is a super star and Kyuhyun is his biggest fan. Kyuhyun's proven this to be true — he's been to every concert, every fan meet, every single event that Donghae's been to, even those that are small wherein Donghae doesn't do much. Kyuhyun doesn't know why, but something about Donghae piques him all the time, like there's always something to discover about Donghae. How his lips curl when he smiles, how his cheeks puff up his eye bags when he laughs. The many ways Donghae moves him.
He's only one of his many fans, but he's the best one, and even if Donghae doesn't give him so much as a passing glance, he knows Donghae remembers because Donghae's looking at him from at miles away, from the stage, like he's always known about his presence.
Like he's the only one in the world that matters.
2. This time, they're lovers. Donghae works with his hands, tracing patterns on his skin — a smiley face, polygons, a heart — sometimes just ghosting him, sending shivers down his spine. "Are we going out," Kyuhyun asks because Donghae's never made anything clear, and right now he simply cannot sit and continue with this tirade. "Because you never say anything.
"Do you love me?"
Donghae chuckles, then pins him down on the bed. Kyuhyun doesn't want to interpret things, but he thinks this means 'I do'.
3. It's the end of the world and he's pooled at Donghae's feet. He's limp and lifeless now, and Donghae lets his fingers linger on his lips. I'm still here, Kyuhyun wants to say, but right now he feels his soul being ripped from his body and it hurts more than how Donghae's tears sting his skin.
He leans in to whisper, nonetheless, and Donghae's eyes shoot up, like he's heard something out of the blue. Kyuhyun doesn't read too much into it, but when Donghae grips his hand, he feels a familiar warmth.
Then Donghae turns around, takes a few steps forward, and jumps.